Martha Smith Good was one of the first female ministers in the Mennonite church in Ontario, back when women in leadership in the church was a Really Big Deal. (This is tragically not that long ago. Also it's still a Really Big Deal in some parts of the mennonite church.) This is her memoir.
It's a self-published book, and has the various minor flaws that come with that fact. Could have used an editor to tighten some things up, that kind of thing. BUT. It is still really worth reading, because Martha Smith Good is clearly a really impressive person.
She was raised in a pretty conservative church, conservative enough that she did not get any education above grade 8 because that would be too worldly. But she still managed, in her adult life, to go on to college and eventually get her D.Min.
She was a pastor, and found churches who wanted her as their pastor no matter her gender. And when the denomination didn't want to ordain her despite it not being technically against the rules (and wanted to change the rules so it WOULD be against the rules!), she stood her ground for her right to be ordained and won. For a number of years she was the campus minister at Goshen College (a mennonite university in Indiana) and while there became the faculty sponsor for the first gay/lesbian student group because she felt called to work on behalf of the oppressed.
And she talks with openness about her various life struggles (including dealing with anxiety and stress, and getting married at 39 and acquiring 4 step-children at once, and of course all the sexist bullshit the church had to offer) and how she overcame them, and without any castigation towards people who made things harder for her.
And she never really makes a thing of what a big deal she was, the incredible things she was doing. She's just telling her story.
I'm glad she chose to publish this book, even though there (presumably) wasn't any publishing house interested in it. It's an important story and I'm glad to have read it.This entry on Dreamwidth | comments
It's like this book was written JUST FOR ME and it is SO GOOOOOOD.
It's a retelling of Hans Christian Andersen's story "The Snow Queen", which was one of my favourite fairy tales when I was a kid. I reread that story about a million times! And unlike things like Cinderella it's not a story that anybody ever bothers doing a retelling of or deconstruction of or analysis of (I'm not counting Frozen because like hell is that actually connected in any meaningful way with The Snow Queen, whatever Disney says).
But T. Kingfisher (aka Ursula Vernon) manages to capture in this book everything I loved about the original story while also making it BETTER.( Read more...Collapse )This entry on Dreamwidth | comments
Okay, here's some really brief reviews of the latest three books I've read. (...you'll notice I haven't been posting a lot of book reviews of late. This is because I haven't been reading a lot of books. It's weird and it sucks and I hate it and I don't know how to fix it. I've only read 4 books, one of which is novella-length, since the beginning of 2016!)The Goblin Emperor, by Katherine Addison
Writing reviews of books that I unreservedly love everything about is a lot harder than writing books where I have complaints. Especially writing reviews of a reread
of a book I love. What is there to say?
Well, here's something. After I finished rereading this book, I was trying to think about what I like so much about it. And I mean there are lots of things, both big overarching things and lots of small choices that were made, that all come together and add up to why I love it to the degree I do. But one thing I realized is.....its main theme has a surprising amount in common with my perennial feel-good reread, The Blue Castle.( thematic spoilers for Goblin Emperor and Blue Castle, no detailsCollapse )The Seventh Bride, by T. Kingfisher
T. Kingfisher is a penname for Ursula Vernon, to keep her books for adults distinct from her books for kids. As Kingfisher she tends to write fairy tale retellings. This one is more or less a retelling of Bluebeard, though with fewer dead women, which is always nice.
I loved how the interplay between Rhea and the other wives made for the most important relationships in the book. And I loved the depth of complexity that Maria ended up having, more than I expected her to!
I don't seem to have a lot else to say about this book though. It was good and I liked it, the end? I guess?The Terracotta Bride, by Zen Cho
I loved it and had a lot of feelings! And I wish I'd written more down immediately after finishing because I can no longer remember my thoughts in enough detail to write a more comprehensive review than this!This entry on Dreamwidth | comments
My ship tags on pinboard were a total mess. I had no consistent method for deciding which name came first, so for any tag uncommon enough that it didn't show up as an autocomplete option, I had to look it up every time to see what I'd used in the past.
Some of my tags were ordered according to fandom's preferred usage (eg harry/draco), some of my tags were ordered according to which character is the more major character in the canon (eg moist/adora), some were ordered according to which character was my favourite (eg hilarion/alexios), and some were ordered according to whatever random decision I made at the time because I didn't know enough about the fandom to know how to tag (no example because these are obviously not fandoms that come easily to mind).
So this made it hard both to remember what I'd used in the past for a given ship, or to decide how to tag a new ship I'd never bookmarked for before.
BUT NO LONGER. Now all my ship tags are strictly alphabetical! I fixed them!
Aaand now the only agonizing part is figuring out what names I want to use for various characters, which can be remarkably challenging in some fandoms. And whether to alphabetize by names that are not actually names, for characters who don't get given names in canon (eg bahorel's laughing mistress - do I alphabetize her by B, by L, or not at all?)
At any rates, my efforts towards continual improvement of my pinboard cataloguing structure continue apace.
Next up: figure out how to tag for fandoms where there's multiple versions of canon with different names but fandom mostly treats them as one so a given fic could fit under either name, except for a rare few fics that are very specifically for one of the versions of canon (eg The Eagle aka Eagle of the Ninth)This entry on Dreamwidth | comments
OKAY I'VE WATCHED THE STAR WARS PREQUELS. It only took me a month from beginning to end! Now, let's see if I still remember the formal logic I learned in long-ago philosophy classes:Premise A:
the prequels are kinda terrible moviesPremise B:
I did not enjoy watching the prequelsConclusion:
I am now a prequels fan.
That...... doesn't look right.
I don't know what happened, but I now have so many feelings
about the prequel era and prequel characters EVEN THOUGH I kinda hate the movies and had to struggle through watching them. So: everyone's right, between the people who told me not to subject myself to these movies and the people who told me there's some good stuff in them! The movies are terrible, yes, but also they are worth watching if you are me.
Although is it just me or is the third movie noticeably better than the first two? Or did I just get inured to the ways in which they're kind of crap?
My main take-away from these movies is that I'm so mad that Anakin Skywalker seems to now be the Star Wars character I have the most feels about, across all trilogies. Like......no. Why. Why did this happen to me. I disapprove. Anakin's terrible. And yet I care so much!
I livetweeted my watching of the three movies because it was the only way to get through them. I will reproduce the highlights of my tweets below, followed by my other thoughts.( TweetsCollapse )( Other thoughtsCollapse )This entry on Dreamwidth | comments
I haven't read a book for a month and a half (which is an ETERNITY for me) and this was just the right book to break me out of my weird bookless rut.
It's a book of - well, it does what it says in the title. A poetry collection, drawing on 12 different authors, all at least several centuries dead, who wrote about human relationships with God.
It's less a direct translation of the original works and more a loose paraphrase, which bugs the intellectual part of my brain because it just leaves me wondering what the originals actually said and how much Daniel Ladinsky is putting ideas into the original authors' mouths that weren't there to start with.
But the experience of reading this book was, dare I say, spiritual? It's the kind of talk about God and religion that I don't see enough of: irreverent and grounded and beautiful and full of love. It was a really meaningful read for me in a way I can't quite articulate.
Not all the poems in this book worked for me, of course, but enough of them did - and even the ones that didn't still helped contribute to the overall tone and feel of the book in a way that matters. Each one of the 12 authors had at least one poem that left me feeling all like, "yes. that."
Let me leave you with a poem from the book by Mira:
The earth looked at Him and began to dance.
Mira knows why, for her soul too
is in love.
If you cannot picture God
in a way that always
you need to read
more of my
Yeah, Mira. You're right. I do.
(in fact I plan to seek out more faithful translations of a number of these poets.)
EDIT: As rachelmanija
kindly pointed out, these poems are in fact original works inspired by the historical poets, not translations at all. They read differently knowing that, I think, and I really wish the publishers had made that fact clearer. At any rate, now it's time to seek out actual translations of actual poems by the historic poets.This entry on Dreamwidth | comments
The thing that's surprised me most since figuring out I'm agender is discovering how many constraints on gender presentation I've always felt - and still feel, much to my dismay! THANKS SOCIETY FOR THE BRAINWASHING I GUESS.
For years I've had people tell me (mostly admiringly?) that I dress very me
, that I don't pay attention to what I "ought" to wear, but wear what I want. And I always thought that was true!
But....it's not true. I've experimented widely, yes, but always within the bounds of certain rules I had no idea I was working so hard to follow.
For example: a few months ago I decided to switch to wearing button-down shirts on my top half, mostly mens-styled shirts. I've always loved that look, but before my breast-reduction surgery there was no hope of such shirts fitting so I never bothered trying. But it struck me suddenly that now I COULD, so I did. And I discovered this vast and intense feeling that I'm not allowed
to wear clothing that doesn't accentuate my feminine shape. That wearing these men's shirts make me look slovenly and unkempt because they're baggy or whatever. The mirror tells me otherwise! The mirror tells me I look great! And I love wearing these shirts! But my feelings are all NOOOOOOOO HDU.
And yesterday I went to get my hair cut. Usually my mom cuts my hair, because that's free and salons are EXPENSIVE. Mom's entire haircutting education is having cut mine and my sister's hair since we were tiny children, so although she's competent enough at what she knows, she doesn't know anything fancy. So she gives me a pretty straightforward cut that mostly just says "short". But she's out of the country right now and I needed a haircut so I went to a professional, and described the haircut that I actually want that Mom's not capable of giving me. And I got it, and I look great, it's exactly the cut I've been low-key hankering after for years and I love it - and then I proceeded to spend yesterday evening in an emotional meltdown because this haircut is too masculine and I'm not allowed
So this is something I'm working on: giving myself permission to present myself the way I actually want to. But it's hard! And I hope I don't discover other "not allowed" areas in my continued experimentation, because it's really not fun.This entry on Dreamwidth | comments
Time (...past time) for the latest edition of abandoned books! Here's the books I started in the year 2015 and failed to finish for various reasons, with commentary.1. Fire: Tales of Elemental Spirits, by Robin McKinley & Peter Dickinson( Read more...Collapse )2. Beat to Quarters (aka The Happy Return), by C.S. Forester( Read more...Collapse )3. Phineas Finn, by Anthony Trollope( Read more...Collapse )4. Guards! Guards! by Terry Pratchett( Read more...Collapse )5. Fanny Hill( Read more...Collapse )6. A Prince of Our Disorder: The Life of T.E. Laurence, by John E. Mack( Read more...Collapse )7. Zahrah the Windseeker, by Nnedi Okorafor-Mbachu( Read more...Collapse )8. Busman's Honeymoon, by Dorothy Sayers( Read more...Collapse )9. Miss Marjoribanks, by Mrs Oliphant( Read more...Collapse )10. Our Journey to Sinai: A Visit to the Monastery of St Catarina, by Agnes Bensly( Read more...Collapse )11. Gender Outlaws: The Next Generation, by Kate Bernstein and S. Bear Bergman( Read more...Collapse )12. The Map That Changed the World: William Smith and the Birth of Modern Geology, by Simon Winchester( Read more...Collapse )This entry on Dreamwidth | comments
Two books that fit into Karen Cushman's usual wheelhouse of historical fiction about a prickly girl who eventually finds a place in the world where she's accepted for who she is and with people who care about her. It's a good wheelhouse! I liked both these books, but particularly enjoyed Matilda Bone because of how unsympathetic Matilda starts the book and how uninterested she is in learning a different way of thinking about things. Also there's a community of medieval female medical professionals! What a great setting.This entry on Dreamwidth | comments
1. The Unbeatable Squirrel Girl: Squirrel Power
2. The Unbeatable Squirrel Girl: Squirrel You Know It's True
both by Ryan North, illustrated by Erica Henderson
WHERE HAS SQUIRREL GIRL BEEN ALL MY LIFE.
I was cackling with delight all the way through. I don't even know what to say. ( I say thingsCollapse )
AND SO FORTH, I could keep going with many exclamation points for a long time. The long and the short of it is: yes good more please.
And like: I know this is an ongoing comic and I know there are more issues out that have not yet been released in trade paperback. So I COULD read them if I wanted to pay ridiculous prices for short and flimsy single-issue releases. But that's not how I prefer to read/buy comics. Sigh, my life is so hard.This entry on Dreamwidth | comments
Occasionally one just needs to reread the Queen's Thief series. I didn't bother with Conspiracy of Kings since I wanted to end on the high note of my favourite book in the series. Of course because I'm me, at one point in King of Attolia, DESPITE me having read it multiple times before and knowing exactly what happens, one bit got too stressful for me and I had to put the book aside for like three weeks before I could continue. *facepalm*
Anyways, I don't really have a lot else to say about these books that I haven't said before. I like them a lot!This entry on Dreamwidth | comments
Butch is a Noun, by S Bear Bergman
Huh. I wasn't expecting to bounce quite so hard off this one. Bergman is clearly a good writer, and with interesting things to say, and I enjoyed reading about hir experiences of gender, but I did not click with anything ze said at all
. I guess it's how clearly ze connects with having a gender. Ivan Coyote and Rae Spoon felt much more relatable to me in their book Gender Failure.
And also how Bergman connects gender with behaviour/actions, like how to hir, being butch is strongly associated with being gentlemanly, which I find kind of offputting actually? idk, maybe that's a generation thing. The whole thing with pulling out chairs for femmes and always walking on the outside of a sidewalk and all that, it just really rubs me the wrong way.
At any rate, I continue to appreciate reading books about gender outside the gender binary. I've got a third one sitting by my bed to read at some point (....along with at least a dozen other books, whoops). Neurotribes: The Legacy of Autism and the Future of Neurodiversity, by Steve Silberman
REALLY good book covering the history of autism. Features a lot of child harm (physical and emotional abuse as well as murder!), but does a great job of covering how autism has been seen in popular understandings and who/what has shaped that. I think the ending is a little too optimistic, given the amount of crap that is still done and believed, but it is pointing in a helpful direction at least.This entry on Dreamwidth | comments
You can see it on my tumblr here
because I'm too lazy to go look up how to embed images again.
also yes I know I am way late in putting up my summary of books read in 2015. I haven't yet put up all my book reviews from 2015 yet is the problem! I'm getting there. Probably.This entry on Dreamwidth | comments
Oh! I suppose I should mention the fics I wrote for yuletide - that was a thing that happened!
My assignment was to write a 12 Dancing Princesses fic, which was great fun. I always love writing fairy tale fic! My recipient articulated various particular themes of interest, all of which were things I could get behind, so I did my best to run with those. The hardest was giving the story a romantic happy ending. Me writing romance! Oh dear. So I gave the main character and her love interest a relationship founded on mutual trust and respect and liking, which I know is not the usual definition of romance but is probably as close as I'm able to come :P It seemed to go over well at any rate!
This is also the longest fic I've written in over four years, which I know isn't exactly impressive for a fic that's less than 3k words long, but it's major for me, and I'm very pleased with myself.
last dance for a ticket home (2665 words) by sophia_sol
Fandom: 12 Dancing Princesses (Fairy Tale), Fairy Tales & Related Fandoms
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Eldest princess/retired soldier
Additional Tags: Misses Clause Challenge
As Helene and her sisters climbed slowly back up the long staircase in the early morning, she tried to summon up the determination and pride she used to feel - but she only felt tired. It had been another long night of dancing, and she could hardly bear to face the thought of doing it all over again the very next night.
I also wrote a treat, which was actually me finally finishing a fic I'd begun like half a year ago (whoops) for Mad Max: Fury Road. I'm pleased with how it turned out in the end!
don't want to look like someone else (1537 words) by sophia_solThis entry on Dreamwidth | comments
Fandom: Mad Max Series (Movies)
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Characters: Toast the Knowing, Furiosa (Mad Max)
Additional Tags: Misses Clause Challenge, Post-Canon, Hair
Furiosa is growing her hair. Toast doesn't know why it feels so strange to look at her and see a soft halo of hair beginning to form about her head. Toast had kept her own hair as short as she dared as a form of minor defiance against Immortan Joe's desires, and surely Furiosa had also constructed her appearance in reaction to the situation. Things have changed; hair can change too.
OKAY THERE I have now watched the original trilogy of star wars as well! I had a deadline for myself: I'm seeing The Force Awakens again on Monday (my dad wants to see it, and I was totally amenable to seeing it twice) so I wanted to see the originals before then, to be able to understand the new movie with the depth of context.
This meant I have watched a lot of movies in one week! Which is PRETTY WEIRD for me.
At any rate, I really did enjoy the original trilogy, and more than I expected to? There were some tedious bits (eg the entire opening sequence of Episode VI with Jabba the Hutt, and all the extended fighting sequences in the movies) but overall they were really enjoyable.
I came into these movies with a lot of pop culture informing me what to expect. But pop culture didn't tell me everything! The five things that surprised me most about the original trilogy:( Read more...Collapse )This entry on Dreamwidth | comments
Last night I went to see the new star wars movie!
This is the first star wars movie I have ever seen in my life. All my prior knowledge is cultural osmosis. And I have apparently osmosed a lot! I managed to catch quite a few call-backs/references to the previous movies, though I'm sure there are also plenty that I missed. The weirdest part though was how I had these intense feelings of nostalgia as the movie was beginning despite
having never seen any star wars before.
At any rate: as a movie it worked quite well with solely my level of prior knowledge! And it was a HELLA FUN MOVIE.( cut for spoilersCollapse )
In conclusion, I feel weird about having seen a star wars movie now. I've always been annoyed with sff gatekeeper fans, and star wars is one of those major things that's held up as being obligatory for nerds. And I tend towards contrarian, so I've actually been kind of deliberate about not bothering to watch star wars? Like, SUCK IT DUDES, I'M AN SFF FAN EVEN IF YOU THINK I DON'T BELONG. (see also: me never having read or watched lord of the rings. see also: my lifelong struggle with being weird/wanting to fit in/defiantly not even trying to fit in because I know I'd never succeed, and how that relates to whether it's okay to like popular things.)
But now I've voluntarily seen a star wars movie, and LIKED it, and now have intentions of going back and watching at least the original trilogy. So. There's that.
Time to dive face-first into reading fic now!This entry on Dreamwidth | comments